Tuesday, May 23, 2006.
today shall be the day i shall try to quit smoking.. again.. i will quit.. lets hope it'll be today.. i suppose the next fewdays will be extremely painful.. but well.. at least i wont be hurting my lungs any longer.. furthermore.. i have nothing to do nowdays.. so.. i guess its da best time to actually kick the bad habit..
i was supposed to be working this week as most of you should know..but well..as it turns out.. i'm not.. its and extremely long story and im not going to type everything out.. it'll only make my blood pressure go up again..
then comes my family bugging me to work.. find a job and all that.. its notthat i cant find a job..i cant find a job that I want.. some people have been bugging me to get an office job.. some even tell me to get a 7-11 or a MacDonalds jo.. heh.. sorry..but i wanna do something that i like.. be it music..or design.. is that so diffuclt for people to understand..
why cant i open up to people? geez.. maybe im afraid of the other person's reactions? or maybe im more comfortable with writing/typing then actully saying things out aloud? God knows..
afew more things bugging me really badly.. to the point that i lose my cool easily nowdays.. looks like my temper is coming back again? or maybe for some reason or another.. my tolerance level is getting lower by the day.. haiz..
the band competition thingie is somewhat settled.. saved alot of money on the equipment.. cos the CC has everything except for the intruments.. so..its just a few money matters..and we can concentrate on publicity..yay! (its the only thing thats getting me excited/happy these few weeks.. no idea why..)
i suppose im just going to get a few things straightened out up here again. migranes are killing me. damn it.
~~right.. left or straight?~~
