Friday, August 12, 2005.
I CAN KILL SOMEONE NOW!!! bloody piece of shit program.. i drew a plan.. transferred it to my 3d rendering program.. then when i tried to put in my doors..the bloody walls got no lobang..then i realised..the doors are out of place!!!!!! kaoz..now i gotta go back to my plans..and draw it AGAIN.. befo doing the 3d stuff.. i tell u..i can really kill someone.. pissed off shit!!!
went to school today.. didnt go for prayers.. cos i had to helpSabz with her school project.. was having a super bad headache that made me feel like puking the whole day... irritated the shit outta me really.. thats y i decided to drive to school.. i doubt i would be able to stand the 45 to 1 hour journey to school.. reached school..helped her out.. and well.. after that..went to meet Khairul after sending Sabz Home.. picked him up from his house..
and i love his house.. its in the Seletar Airport area.. its a very quiet and peaceful area.. so serene.. i'd love to have a house in that area.. and his house is really beautiful! its those houses built during the British era.. it was built mainly for the British.. hmm..if only i was that bloody rich.. haha yes.. IF ONLY.. nevermind..i shall work hard and be the first idiot in da family to be a millionaire.. i WILL do it. :P
anyway.. went to have a little chat with Khairul today.. haha after a while my tummy started rumbling.. frankly..didnt expect it to do so.. wasnt hungry a tall..sudden hungry-ness..wth.. went to the coffeeshop to continue chatting..
talked about my dreams.. geez.. after so long.. today was the first time that i actually told someone bout my dreams..and i did it enthusiastically.. hmm.. havent done so in eyars really..haha.. and the best part of the whole thing.. Khairul wanna help me realise that dream.. haha cos it requires a hell lot of mone. something which i really lack now..haha..dont think ill be putting it up here though..not now..haha..cos.. i find it a very very good idea..wouldnt want any bloody copycats.. hehz.. the internet is alittle too 'public' nowdays.. so..some things are better left untyped? haha..
geez.. this bloody headache doesnt seem to go away..taken my medication..but it doesnt seem to work.. grrh..
anyway.. if a butterfly were to appear suddenly..and fly around and above u..wad does it mean? i know there is such a superstition.. wanna noe the meaning..happened to me just now..haha out of nowhere a butterfly appeared..and flew around and above me.. then it just disappeared.. scary..haha.. been bugging me since it happened..still dont know the meaning.. if any of u do know the meaning..tell me!!!!
hmm.. its been 48 hours already... still itched to msg and call..but well..khairul kept bugging me not to..and i was busy driving/sleeping/eating/talking..hahaha.. heart's bee naching like mad.. but well..48 hours.. im gng to make a record!!!! haha..if it ever reaches a week... it'll be the first time in 4 yrs plus.. haha..yesh.. i've heard her almost everyday for the past 4 yrs..and i didnt grow tired of her.. mad idiot right..hahaha.. loves blinds people i suppose.. and it makes people do impossible things.. haha.. nvm.. its not possible anyway..she doesnt want to work it out.. i cant d oanything..its either be wit hehr..or forget her Ridzuan.. and the latter is the only choice for u now..
blehz.. convincing myself again..muahaha...im such a weirdo..haha..nvm..wadever it takes to get my life back..ill do it.. and God.. pls ah.. 2 years of a screwed life.. can u make things brighter for me? slightly better also can.. i'd begrateful enough..shine some light.. if not... ill use the bloody torchlight.. plllsssssss.. last eyar in poly..i wanna leave with a bang.. or at elast.. leave my mark there (a gd mark ah..)
ok fine.. i shall get bac kto the bloody 3d rendering crap..and i will try to finish up the doors.. haha.. if not..ill never get to sleep in peace tonite..muacks..cya all~~
~~Pop two panadols every 8 hours.. i did i.. stillnt working. PANADOL EXTRA SUMMORE!~~
