Wednesday, May 25, 2005.
Hmm.. irealised i haven been blogging.. maybe its because.. i havent been gng online..
someone got angry with me today.. that person is A. A pissed me off cos A kept hurting me.. i slapped A..and i didnt talk to A.. then A got pissed off.. and isnt picking up my calls.. and A doesnt want to have anything to do with me. How nice.. it was one slap.. for 2 months of patience.. and its wasnt even a proper slap.. Fuck.. im so fucking confused.. and all this has to happen a week b4 my school term officially start.. im financially broke.. and this tiem im serious..im left with 70 cents.. bad thing out that.. no money..more stress.. good thing bout it.. no money..no cigarettes.. heh...
i kept calling A.. from 4:19pm till now..A hasnt pick up.. im worried.. im scared.. but somehow.. my heart is telling me to shut up and leave A alone.. i wouldnt be able to sleep in peace.. i'd rather A picks up the phone and fucks me on the phone instead of not picking up..at least i know A is fine.. haiz.. and at the backof my head.. i know this is not good.. but the thing is..my heart keeps on irritating me.. i must move on... but somehow or rather..there is a 70 tonne anchor stuck at my feet.. not allowing me to fucking walk away.
I NEED FRESH AIR!!! SOMEONE SHOW ME THE FUCKING WAY!!! show me the way without faling for me.. ill be truly grateful.. haha.. last thing iw ant now is love.. too many other factors to consider.. :X so..if u can help me find my way out of this fucking piece of shit im in right now..do call me..or tag my board.. or u can email me at..
tromridz@singnet.com.sg or
terroridz@gmail.com thanks.
~~ridzuan~~
