Sunday, April 24, 2005.
hullo all..its me.. Ridzuan.. everything da same except for my bloggy's addy..hehz..
was actually planning to change my bloggy addy for a long time already..just was too lazy to do it..hahaha..eventually did it yesterday.. i'll keep the old one around for a while.. for the fun of it..maybe ill delete it after a month or two..heh..
my god ma is in hospital again.. and well... she was supposed to be at Malacca.. for treatment.. ermz.. O3(ozone) is induced in the blood.. its supposed to help the body rejuvenate itself..and strengthen the body's immune system.. hehz.. but sumhow or rather..all the treatment she's been going for isnt quite helping.. she's now almost bald due to chemotheraphy.. and her chest hurts like mad every single day..she has to take morphine manually everytime it hurts..so one can only imagine the amount of pain she's in right now.. hurts like hell..but ic ant seem to bring myself to say anything....maybe its because i expect something bad to happen? or i know something bad is going to happen? i know..these things are in the hands of God..but ic ant help it if i can somehow or rather see things.. and best part of all..when i see her..i know exactly what she is thinking about..all her children and her husband..and when is she going die..haiz.. it sucks to know things... grrh.. cant bring myself tocry anymore.. cos it'll just hurt even more.. hehz..
im working now.. at the Braddell Heights Commuinity Club.. data entry thingie with my classmate from poly..haha..my father's idea.. make him happy la..work there..furthermore its so bloody near to my place... 5 minutes walk..haha..can wake up at 8.30..and still be able to reach there by 9..hahaha! and everytime i meet sum1 big or sum1 who works in the cc..ill be introduced as Rosli's son..haha..wth.... getting irritating..hehz.. have work tomorrw... and i wanna sleep..but i've already slept like a baby this afternoon..hahhaa..so nice to sleep on my bed :X
during the weekend..last weekend.. one of my longest friendships with someone eded.. and im not sad about it at all..i guess..i have been too patient throughout the whole time.. and.. the other person..was taking full advantage of me.. guessed i;ve tolerated enough for so long.. its just time i made friends with other more grateful people..rather than being stuck with one bloody arrogant.. over confident sucker.. hehz..some [people may say that sounds just like me.. but one.. i help people..with all my heart..he helps people..and then backstabs them when they aren't around.. two.. he's over confident cos..he's always bragging about stuff..which he claims he knows... and when he's proven wrong.. he's shouts at you..or throws a tantrum..bad loser.. i dont. .i'll accept that i'm wrong..when i'm proven wrong...hehz.. :P
sian.. going off now..having a super teruk stomache.. haiz.. and for the whole of sunday..im the toilet's most frequent visitor..hehz.. blehz..have to drink more water..if not..ill dehydrate myself..haha..and i hate water!! arhz.. now i cant drink anything thats carbonated.. or anythjing that has caffiene.. (eh..no caffiene means no smoking.. shit).. and no diary products too..lehz..ill miss milk and cheese..hahaha.. oh ... no chilli too..haha.. blehz.. have work tomorrow..gng to lie on my bed till i eventually fall asleep..nitez all!!
~~All of us are humans.. we all have a limit~~
